zuhairah's

its been awhile

2011-05-04T00:05:00.012+08:00

it has been awhile, hasn't it?

and it feels abit different to be blogging, after so v v v long.

anyway, school has (almost) officially ended for me. all that is left is graduation. then it will be officially over. you know, i still cant let go of school.

i admit, i still miss school.

i miss tp.

i miss design.

i miss iad.

i miss studio.

i miss camp.

i miss loggers.

yeah, well just safe to say i miss school.

you have no idea. its like a breakup. my heart is breaking and i genuinely cant let go of school, not just yet.

but just let me be. sooner or later, i would have to let go of it. sooner or later, i would have to move on no matter what.

life goes on.

so, whats next?

beats me. hah.

2010-04-18T23:39:00.004+08:00

SCHOOL. START OF YEAR3.

its tomorrow.

all the very best.

ready?

get set.

GO.

ready. get set.

2010-04-11T04:44:00.000+08:00

ok so wow.
its been 3weeks and holidays' coming to an end soon!
damn im going to miss holidays !
since im not going to have any "official" holidays anymore and its all going to be school school school :
hmm. abit sad but a little excited of whats coming too.

okay so far my holidays have been spent well.
with sleeping and lazying and eating and movies and sleeping and lazying and goingouts and meetups. yeap. but most sleeping and lazying, still.
hahaha.
well i should be enjoying this holiday while i still can, you know.
after this one, its ALL SCHOOL. (plus attachment)
and thats means, NO PROCRASTINATING, NO LAZYING, NO MOVIES, NO SLEEPING LIKE A PIG, NO WASTING TIME, NO TV, NO LAPPY EXCEPT ONLY WORK, NO MEETUPS.
ok who am i kidding. whats a year without all these? and whats zuhairah without all these?
haha.
ok fine maybe not all. maybe i can still watch movies. but only when is it necessary or reasonable. like if we're all stress with p3, a show or a movie can help to ease us up a little, no?
and im not perfect too you know,
but no worries, ofcourse i'll do my best, nevertheless (:

[edit] p/s: i have no idea whats wrong with the fonts. blogs going crazy. tsk

2010-04-11T03:45:00.003+08:00

i miss you.
but what can i do?
i can only sit here and wonder.
wonder what it could have been, if things were different.
but, i dont want to regret.
things must have all happened, for a reason.
i know that, because, i have faith in you.

letting love find a way.

2010-03-14T00:13:00.005+08:00

this post have been officially moved.
you are, too little too late.
cheers, mate.

whats not to love.

2010-03-09T22:03:00.003+08:00

all i can say is,
Paramore was definitely awesome.
the night was spent too great to describe.
what a rush.
really awesome time.
enough said.
;D

p/s: have i mentioned that they were awesome?

who'll watch over you.

2010-02-26T11:44:00.012+08:00

theres no point brooding over something that is over.

just.

learn from it.

forgive yourself.

and move on.

like soldiers, march on.

p/s: i think im loving Volcom more the more im working on it!

and heres a random photo i found.

why dont we just buy cars this way!

cute right!

ok ok stop sleeping. do work now.

2010-02-17T18:27:00.009+08:00

ok 4days short holiday was,
awesome goodfun!
spent all the days and had good awesome time.
but....
um........
i didnt, um....
do.. um..
any.
work...
>.< !!!

yes i know. its like im the one whose celebrating cny.
but hey! it was a holiday. and besides, spent most of the time with my family. its not all the time that i get to spend time with them, you know.
besides, i know i'll be v busy once im in year3. (oh no)
so, umm, i guess its okay?
heh.

okay fine maybe not.
but hey, i already kinda started my work today.
and this means, i need to work hard for this (counting..) 6days before the final submission!
and cant let my lazyass sleep all the time, or watch movies or shows and get distracted, or do other distracting stuff.
simply put,
I NEED TO FOCUS.
and. NOT PROCRASTINATE.
and hopefully, no regret and disappointment at the end of the day.
please. no regret and disappointment.

alright. (need to continue work already) so heres some random photos.
till then,
ciao bella & bello.

its not the end.

2010-02-14T03:30:00.006+08:00

its your faith that makes you stronger.
just, take one step at a time.

dont give up hope.

its perfectly fine to be a happy individual

2010-02-13T00:51:00.009+08:00

i should be living
giving my mind the chance to rewind
and playback beautiful music

YAY. 4days of short holiday.
and my proposal for the project was fine too, so, YAY.
butttt, i gotta keep doing and improving and work more on it.
and not be.
lazy. (tsk this is partly the reason why short holidays are bad! >.<)

but anywayyyy,
cheers to short holiday!
happy advance chinese new year!
and.
happy happy (:

hate you but not.

2010-02-11T06:35:00.007+08:00

i love mornings like this, like today.
i really do.

but i hate mornings like yesterday.
totally ruin my mood.
tsk.
yeah maybe you didnt mean it intentionally, but have you ever heard of, be careful of what you say, because sometimes words can kill people like a knife ?
and yeah, you did that.
offended, i was.

but.
im glad today's a wonderful morning (:
please dont ruin it.
thank you

baby's back!

2010-02-09T01:40:00.001+08:00

thankyou, and everyone, for the support.
♥

welcome back lappy (:

ahhh )':

2010-01-14T01:43:00.004+08:00

no.
please dont fail me lappy.
please, dont.
)':

2010-01-10T00:54:00.003+08:00

IM VERY TIRED. VERY VERY VERY TIRED.
I REALLY DONT WANT TO DO WORK.
BUT I NEED TO.
AHH

2010-01-05T23:17:00.012+08:00

eh guess what guess what guess what.

i finally got my mac hotcakes breakfast.

awesome or what.

yes it is.

and i finally jogged. or more like, walked around bedok reservoir, like for the first time.

haha i know, sucha noob never been around bedok reservoir before, but haha whocares.

atleast i exercised. haha.

we should do that someday again zah ;)

and.

im not happy with my lecturer.

when she looked through my works, it feels as though she didnt even bother at all. then skip when i was talking and went to the next student.

what. what are you expecting from me huh.

perfection?

or to be like the best student (aka your fav student) ?

i dont know. its like, even when ive given my best, it feels like everything is not enough, it feels like everything is not up to standard, your standard.

im not perfect and i can never be.

please dont bring me so low, can?

010110

2010-01-01T19:52:00.008+08:00

happy new year!

ok so whats new ?

well except for the fact that ive downloaded and received (QUITE ALOT of) new songs, and got a new toothbrush,
it seems so that everything else is still the same.

and resolutions?
still pretty much the same ol ones too.
heh heh

oh wells

p/s: i still want mac pancakes for breakfast idontcare

you hurt me.

2009-12-30T05:04:00.009+08:00

because i had a bad day.

no wait wait it was more like,

because i had a bad night,
a really bad night.

thanks for the pain.

im sick of this.
im sick of trying/doing so hard.
doing all i bloody can just to let our friendship remain strong.
not giving up after getting so much.
not giving up on you after what youve done.
i tried.
no infact, i did all i can.
but it feels like, it wasnt worth it.

and im sick of you. and you.
im sick of trusting.
i thought you trusted me, like i did to you.
but turns out, im like just your any other friend that you used to help with your problems.
f off.
just, go and f die.

oh cheesy oh cheesy

2009-12-24T02:18:00.001+08:00

what a night.
haha

yay to me =.=

2009-12-21T07:53:00.002+08:00

i didnt sleep.
no wait.
i couldnt sleep.
and now, i have to leave for camp.
):

mutual

2009-12-21T01:14:00.012+08:00

though i know i said i wouldnt leave you behind
but i have to go
it breaks my heart to say.

ok.

im so not preapared for camp,
and i dont feel like going for camp.
but the camp is tmr, tmr morning.
and these days ive been sleeping at 5/6/7, 5/6/7am.
how about that.

and i need work.
but i just missed one opportunity.
damn

and i wanna go for paramore concert so bad.
but i need ticket money.
anybody nice enough to treat me?

and i want a longer holiday, please?

and 'picnic' with the sweetly dressed girls was goodfun.
i like the place.
i like the kites.
i like the cake.
i like our meals.
i like playing cards.
i like playing water.
haha

and my brother just told me a super lame joke.
and laughed at his own joke.
and i laughed.
at him.
haha

ok im done being random.
bye
(still in no mood for camp)

oh ya, nah, a few photos.
...

oh shit. blogger wont let me upload photos.
sorry

the beauty of Your love.

2009-12-13T04:45:00.003+08:00

one of the very best ♥
:')

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2009-11-29T03:21:00.003+08:00

i just feel, really tired.
about everything.
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lifeless ?
i hope not.
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happy november birthday bestfriend!

2009-11-21T04:08:00.038+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my awesome cool bestfriend, Nur Fatihah Abd Rahim!
♥♥

ok so first of all
this girl, is very skinny (i mean slim) and very tall
so tall that everytime i see her, i'll always ask, hey why do you look so tall today huh?
haha.

and this girl too, is very random

so random that even during times like shitting, she'll come up (or more like think of) something sooo random.

and not to forget, shes funny and ofcourse, very lame. haha.

but despite her lameness, all those jokes never fail to put a smile on my face.

and thats why i love her.

and despite all her non-stop act cute faces/expressions (and orange faces) and all her epic hairstyles,

i'll still love her.

and i just want this lucky kid to know,

that no matter how grumpy/annoying you can sometimes get (no matter what happens),

i'll always be here for you.

so thank you fatihah for being such an awesome friend.

and im sorry for being annoying at times too (heh)

may He bless you always, takecare,

and once more, happy 18th doood! ;D

p/s: haha this was purposely saved as draft. heh ;)

friday the 13th

2009-11-15T04:54:00.002+08:00

that night, was sure some night.
might not be a perfectly good night in a literal way,
but yes, im sure,
it was some night to be remembered.

because you are, my only exception

2009-10-30T17:17:00.006+08:00

when i was younger,
i saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
he broke his own heart
and i watched,
as he tried to reassemble it.
and my mama swore that
she would never let herself forget.
and that was the day that i promised
i'd never sing of love
if it does not exist.

but darling,
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception

maybe i know, somewhere
deep in my soul,
that love never lasts.
and we've got to find other ways
to make it alone
or keep a straight face.
and ive always lived like this,
keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now,
i had sworn to myself that im content
with loneliness,
because none of it was ever worth the risk.

but you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception

ive got a tight grip on reality, but i cant
let go of whats in front of me here.
i know youre leaving in the morning, when you wake up,
leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

because you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception

and im on my way to believing
oh, im on my way to believing ♥

kudos to paramore (:

anyways, i found a few awesome photos.

cute girl, yes ?

cool photo, huh ?

beautiful shot, right ?

and yes, i have minnie ears and ribbon :D

haha kay gotta get going for night cycling!
toooodles (:

what friends?

2009-10-21T21:40:00.013+08:00

either you got too over and it got me pissed, or i was already pissed at you so everything you do or say was too over for me.
what a bloody confusing feeling.
and as much as i can be emotional/ego/bias (ikutkan perassan), to be frank, you can be sucha pain in the ass too.
so whos wrong, and whos right?

maybe its you.
maybe its me.
maybe its pms, maybe thats why i get annoyed easily.
or maybe its something else..... ?

pffft. this kind of feelings suck.

and what does the word 'friend' really means? because i believe if you call each other friends, then you should be true to one another, no?
this world is sucha scary place. because everyone have their own mask, beneath it can be someone different and you can never trust people too much. the two of you can look so close from the outside yet deep inside you dont like each other, or even hate one another. its like, frienemies.
i dont know, it just got me thinking sometimes.

but neverthesless, i still think this world is a beautiful place. all thanks to, love. because despite all the awful things like hatred, hypocrisy, betrayal, envy, revenge, prejudice, grudge and more, the beautiful love conquer it all. and it makes the whole world beautiful.
and thats why im definitely blessed to be loved by my great family and relatives, and those awesome friends i know i can count on.
so thank you ♥

miss me ?

2009-10-19T00:24:00.007+08:00

im back! from jepun!
like, umm, a week ago actually
hahahah

and japan trip was awesome goodfun la, serious !
i miss jepun! ):

and tmr sucks because im going for some intern work and i need to wake REAL EARLY.
pfffft >.<

got to go sleep
toooodles :D

p/s: photos of japan trip more in facebook ;)

until then

2009-10-04T14:46:00.003+08:00

ahhhhh
my flight is in, umm (counting), 8 hours!
ahhh and im still not done with packing my bag, yet (Y)

okay back to packing
takecare okay
so long and goodbye (:

till then, ♥

tsk tsk. singaporeans

2009-10-02T15:00:00.009+08:00

isnt it funny how singaporeans are given 9 months to change their ezlink but choose to do it in the very last last minute ?
and then they'll suffer because they have to queue up for so so so long.
haha.

see!

anyways! 3 more days to jepun!
woots woots!

say what?

2009-09-27T17:32:00.026+08:00

its been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know

okay hey, its been quite awhile since i last blog and i have many many things to say. well atleast not to say, but there have been many many things happening around me these past few days/weeks. i think, too much that i became lazy to blog it all out. so right now, im just gonna skip the little little details and keep it short and sweet :D

PROJECTTWO IS DONE OMG. (like finally, right)

PCOMD IS DONE YESSA.

HOLIDAY IS HERE DOUBLE YESSA. (yes i know right, finally)

MY GROUP WON/IS CHOSEN FOR THIS COMPETITION WOWWEE. (i was told not to say what is it so yeah)

IM GOING FOR MY SCHOOL STUDYTRIP WEEHOO. (secret i dont wanna tell you where ;P)
(but some people already know where so whattheheck im going to tell you anyway)

OKAY FINE IM GOING TO JAPAN DOUBLE WEEHOO.

AND HARI RAYA IS HERE WOOOHOO. (although ramadhan is much missed)
so, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all! :D

oh yes so ive mentioned before that i'll upload photos when i have the time right, and well since i have it now (yes im having my holidays!), so heres a few (okay quite alot actually) random photos in random order. enjoy!

p/s: oh the photos are abit blurry and pixelated, so click on it if you wanna see a clearer (and bigger) version of it.

birthday in school :D
they made me this using the recycled cardboards! haha creativeorwhat!

birthday at home :D

salam aidilfitri :D

yes thats me in tudong, i know, people say i look abit different, ey ? haha

my awesome family, but not so complete, yet.

breakfast with girlfriends :D

then they surprised me with a cake and a gift! aww sweet right.

okay done.
wow uploading work is tiring.
okay byebye im gonna watch another movie heee.
love,

happy september birthday bestfriend!

2009-09-20T23:17:00.012+08:00

Happy Happy Birthday to my awesome sweet bestfriend, Nur Zahidah Bte A Manan!
♥♥

okay so this girl is like a sister to me. in both ways, like an elder sister,

and like a younger sister too.

this girl is always so patient with me, always putting up with my retardedness,

no matter how annoying and lame i get, she'll still just go along with it,

until the time she gets bored and tired of entertaining me,

and then leave me to take photos alone (haha!),

but in the end, she'll come back anyway haha,

and thats why i love her,

and despite her being so unglam at times,

despite her acting abit gay at times (remember this photo got me laughing nonstop! haha),

i'll still love her

so thank you zahidah for being sucha great friend.

and im sorry ive not been sucha good friend.

may He bless you, takecare always and once again, happy 18th babe! :D

(ta daaa! haha remember this time? see i told you i'll edit this photo! haha)

i love You till the end

2009-09-09T22:16:00.011+08:00

090909, yeap the special day.
first of, thankyou.
thank you from the bottom of my heart to all of you.
thankyou for the wishes, thankyou for remembering, thankyou for the surprises, thankyou for the cards, thankyou for the gifts, thankyou for the cake, and most of all, thankyou for the thoughts ♥

to some people, sweet 18 is special because, youre finally legal and in a way, um, its just kinda special. i never thought and expect that this year would be sooo special, but hey, turns out it was special, in its own way. its not special because i celebrated a sweet 18th birthday party or something, but its special because its specially different, and i love it. i totally love it :D
and despite the fact that i spent half of today in school, i still love today. it was still awesomely greatfun :D

so to my beloved mommy, thanks for loving me all the way and ofcourse, for giving birth to me (okay yes i know this is a little corny but hey im serious, without her, i wouldnt be around haha).

to dad and my lovely siblings, thanks for always being there for me, for entertaining my retardedness (hehh), for wishing me first, for the dinner and gifts, and ofcourse, for loving me for who i am.

to my wonderful opah and relatives, thanks for being caring and loving me.

to my great bestfriends, thanks for the wishes, for always being there for me, for accepting me for who i am (despite being annoying and retarded at times hee), for entertaining my insane and silly acts, and ofcourse, for loving me (which i hope you do because i do haha).

to my awesome girls, thanks for the surprising surprises, the cake, the gifts, the card, for accepting me for who i am, for entertaining my idiotic and wacky acts, and ofcourse, for being such awesome friends.

to my greatfun classmates, thanks for the wishes, the card and for the greatfun times we had.

to my dear friends, schoolmates, exschoolmates, outside friends (and the rest), thanks for the wishes.

every single thought is much appreciated and thank you all for everything. im a happy happy girl today because you people totally made my 090909 special! and i have to say, im absolutely blessed and lucky to have you people in my life ;) :D
lovelovelove you all! ♥♥♥

with love, yours sincerely,
zuhairah

p/s: and oh, i'll upload the photos when i have the time ey! :D

2009-09-08T08:12:00.001+08:00

yessa. presentation is over for me, and for those who presented yesterday also. i can feel the burden off my shoulder for awhile because i dont have to present later today. and you know, i could finally have my rest yesterday. slept for about 6hours! hee.
but all the best to those who are presenting later anyway!

wow. time has been going really fast dont you think ? projecttwo and ramadhan is coming to an end soon but it feels as though it just started. and wadyaknow, its already september! fast, so fast. and in 10days time, its already the final submission and presentation of projecttwo. fast, yes?

okayyy need to get ready to go to schoool.
ciao bella

never give up hope

2009-09-06T13:35:00.006+08:00

you see, anyone can give up, its the easiest thing to do in the world. but to hold it all together when youre at your lowest and when everything falls apart, now that's true strength.

never give up.
because believe me, theres still hope.

2009-08-25T01:33:00.002+08:00

its here, its here!
fasting month is here!

and its here, its here!
projecttwo second block is here, too!

so, um, is this good or bad ?

trust is gone. go to hell

2009-08-05T07:54:00.005+08:00

wth. thats it. i have had it with you.
im tired, and sick of doing this.
i cared for you, as a friend ofcourse.
and i thought you cared for me the same way, as a goodfriend too.
but no, i was wrong, you never bothered.
sometimes, i tried not to believe this, because i trusted you.
but, im sick and tired of trying and trusting and hoping.
because you never bothered, anyway.
fine.
i thought you were a friend, my friend, my truefriend.
i guess i was wrong, so bloody wrong.
thanks, for toying around with my trust and my heart.
that is it.

because love is them

2009-07-31T05:04:00.004+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday to my coolest awesomest sweetest brother, Ahmad Zhafir!
and Happy 9th Birthday to my cutest funnest sweetest youngest sister and brother, Atiiqah and Hafiy!
i love you guys! ♥♥♥♥

oh no, not you again.

2009-07-28T07:41:00.003+08:00

alright gonna make a quick post now.
because im supposed to sleep right now before having to wake up again, later.
so yes, im sooo done with 3dsmax and public speaking. *foooh chip off my shoulder*

but sadly, the burden (and the chip) is back on my shoulder as projecttwo started yesterday. yep, yesterday was the first day and we're already have to go for a site visit later today. and the best part, yet, is that we're gonna have critique sessions every single bloody week. which also means, presentations every week. woohoo yay to me.
and and and so, the most important thing i need to do is to keep focus and to keep avoiding my worst enemy; laziness. yes, my worst habit of all.
hope this will be fine. hope i will be fine.

so all the best to classmates for projecttwo (lets chiong together man!), and to everyone with their own projects2/3/4 or sip or other modules, or even those other school students whose having exams in a month time or even lesser (hinthint to someone who needs to start studying NOW!) and to anyone whose reading this la kay.
all the best and goooodluck (:

p/s: and have i mentioned to you that projecttwo already started?

youre indeed, a truefriend (:

2009-07-15T09:36:00.001+08:00

happy happy birthday to my bestsisterlyfriend, agnes regala ong (:
♥♥

(i just realised this was saved as draft. heh >.<)

tired and sick, literally.

2009-07-03T00:13:00.002+08:00

flu, sore throat, cold and probably fever.
oh man.
hope to get well soon.
and hope it doesnt get worse.
because i dont want to miss class but the cold aircon rooms are killing me.
come on body, dont fail me.
i want to feel fine again!
and thanks to those who actually care
♥

ease

2009-07-01T00:46:00.004+08:00

oh no.
ive been abandoning bloggie for quite some time.
wooops, heeee.
ive been occupied these days because of competitions,
and mannnnnnnnn i feel good now, because both competitions are done and overwith!
woooooots !

YOG competition (well sortof) was great fun. mellisa and javin did an awesome job presenting, while persie, zihao and i did an awesome job watching and standing and uhhh, supporting! yessss. hahaha.
but well overall, i think we did pretty well guyss. woooooots! :D
and ie competition was ummm, i didnt quite enjoyed it. well except for the food part! haha! and i personally think everyone did an awesome job. well done alll! (Y)
and so i conclude that the greatest thing about today (well i mean yest), was the breakfast, lunch and dunch buffet! heheheeeee :D
haha well no doubt i enjoyed the whole thing (:

it feels good when you dont have to do anything and dont need worry about anything, you know, relating to school, and assignments, and projects, and stuff. haha. and yeah im in that state right now and i wanna embrace it by watching movie or something, but too bad, im too tired to be doing anything. so i guess the bestest way of embracing it is to rest. (finally i can say rest because finally i can sleep without the need to worry about anything at all, and by that i meant school. haha)
weeheeeee.

because i love you guys to death

2009-06-22T23:34:00.011+08:00

relatives from brunei just went back to brunei few hours ago.
and yesterday, relatives from malaysia went back to their home too. man im soooooo gonna miss them to bitsss.
and im so so so so happy they were all here. well ofcourse except for kak aida, kak diyana and baby sarah. but im still sooooooo bloody happy allll my aunties and uncles and cousins and niece from malaysia and brunei were here to be together for my auntys wedding.
man i lovelove them! ♥

and my auntys wedding was ofcourse awesomely great! the preparing and the disarranging was greatfun, so was the post events (present-opening and interviewing sessions!) and ofcourse the event itself was great! shes so beautiful on that wedding day(and ofcourse always, haha) and haha ofcourse so is my new uncle/ayah su! and im sooo happy for her that her dream/s finally came true. may the two of you last for eternity (:
♥♥♥

aww sweet kan kan kan!

haha ♥

and oh yes, have i mentioned that the trip to malaysia with my beloved family was greatfunfunfun too! haha
just too bad my sister wasnt there because she had to work.
hmm thats fine, the next one she better be around!
lovelove you all!
(:

this heart, it beats, beats for only you.

2009-06-19T02:27:00.006+08:00

oh yeah, i almost forgot.
gonna be busy from tomorrow onwards because of my auntys wedding this weekend.
so so so, next week, make yourself free because we should and will be going out !!!
wooooots!

like soldiers, march on
if we can make it through the night we'll see the sun
march on, march on
(:

like soldiers, march on

2009-06-19T02:16:00.003+08:00

it hurts so much i teared.
haha stupid.
hahaha
hahahaha
hahahahaha

okay okay i should stop.
ok byebye.

dont forget to remember me.

2009-06-14T20:06:00.001+08:00

im leaving.
goodbye, and takecare(:
♥

yeap, finally.

2009-06-11T03:00:00.004+08:00

woooooooh!
now i can officially declare my,
HOLIDAYS BABY! :D

and exhibition studies; owneddd
hahah (:
i have to admit, the module was actually funfunfun!
:D

and i have something funny to show you guys,
im sure some must have seen it before, but hell im going to show it anyway.
hahaha.
oh, and you can skip the last part, 0.35secs onwards
(:

because random just is,

2009-06-07T19:16:00.002+08:00

in my world, everyones a pony.
and they all eat rainbows.
and poop butterflies.

i could say, but i didnt

2009-06-05T19:32:00.007+08:00

hello world.
right now im in school. in my dark studio.
its dark because my two retarded friends here are sleeping, while im here, blogging.
haha
theyre sleeping because theyre accompanying me. because im waiting for my dad. to come and pick me up. so i can eat at home. because i havent eat since morning. and theyre nice friends because theyre willing to wait and accompany me. so while waiting, they sleep. that is why my studio is dark.
hahahaha :D

im, just, bored, la.

and im so happy rosli approved my socalled-proposal!
weeeeeeee! :D
so now i just need to do my floor plan and scaled model!
wooooooo! :D
just hope he wont reject it on tues!
woooooooots

and its really not okay

2009-06-04T02:48:00.003+08:00

oh no.
im currently(its right now actually, lol) addicted to my kuih baulu.
i cant stop eating it. and soon, the whole containers gonna be empty :S
mannn

and im currently(not just tonight actually, lol) addicted to my baby; my acoustic guitar, though its kinda handicapped right now. haha need to get it fix man! sooooon!

and have you love someone so much, you'd give an arm for ?
not the expression, but literally give an arm for ?
i would, for you.

prove me youre different

2009-06-03T01:51:00.001+08:00

i
now
cant
trust
these
people
any
more

and

i
now
give
up
on
these
people

that
is
it

because i truly love you, thats why

2009-06-01T02:39:00.011+08:00

its 2.39am in the morning right now
so that means its monday 1st june already
so
so
so
this simply means,
i can simply say,

Happy Happy Birthday to My Beloved Mommy!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

theres so much i can talk about and i dont know where to start actually. haha
so my Mama; my Mama was the first person i laid eyes on (haha unless i opened my eyes and saw the doc first, haha!) and for the past 17 years, she've been there for me through almost everything. infact, she've been there for all the seven of us through almost everything. such a wonderwoman she is. but unfortunately, i have not been at my best through all these years to my mom. ive done shits of stuff and many mistakes that have obviously upset and disappoint her. and im sorry from the bottom of my heart. but nevertheless, she have never give up on me and continued to shower me with her love despite getting hurt and disappointed most of the time. such a great mother she is. i thank you for loving me and i thank you for being my mother. i love you with all my heart and i will keep on loving you till, forever. happy birthday once more my dearest beloved mama (:

and and and, lets go for more dinners! more family outings! more cooking moments! more crappy moments! more girls talks! more mature open talks (haha!) more mother to daughther outings! and more more more of time with you. i'll cherish you more more more and love you till theres no end at all. yayyyyyy
(((:

♥, aira

because youre more than amazing to create something amazing

2009-05-28T05:01:00.002+08:00

imma big time professional procrastinator.
and now, i just need to be bad at it.
ugh.

and the reason why im still awake now is because i kinda just woke up, at 3.04am just now.
ugh.

anyways, let me show you guys something kinda cool.

what do you think this is? a skyscraper? a tower? a high rise building?

think

if your answer is any of those, then youre wronggg!

its a..

tadaaaaa

its the largest file cabinet in the world!

hahaha

kinda cool, isnt it. and its 65ft high which is around 18metres.

haha coolorwhat! :D

haha.
dont you think its amazing how the creator creates the creator of the creation.
wow

wanting you the way that i do

2009-05-24T02:27:00.000+08:00

and we'll have fun fun fun
till your daddy takes the t-bird away!

hmmmm

let me recall what ive done this week so far.

monday was first day of exhibition studies, the lesson was, well, okay.

after lesson, bernita, persie, syara and i headed to town for, umm for fun! :D

tuesday was gelare day! woooooooh! :D

after class, anthony drove us to e!hub and the rest too! he had to drove two rounds because of that. hahaha

gelare was good, as always. people calling me like im the waiter wasnt good, at all. laughing and crapping alot was hell good too, as usual :D

after gelare, went to have our dinner but ian, ting ting, kenyih and javin left :( so its just us girls with anthony!

and as we're done, he sent us all back home, yayyy anthony! :D

but now i really feel like getting car license! (though i know theres only 0.99% chance that i will get one anytime soon)

wednesday was exhibition visiting day!

such an exciting experience. went to christain lacroix and verner panton exhibition at singapore national museum. really cool! :D

took many photos and videos too. fun fun fun!

soon after that, met misssexygeek for my break fast.

laughed and crapped as usual :D

thursday was torture day!

stayed in school almost whole day for group project.

laughed like silly retarded people until the torture came, gastric.

it was the worse gastric i ever had. byright i can and was supposed to break the fast but my stubborness couldnt give in. sigh.

and there, i suffered.

but thank god, i got home and ate and sleep and rest as much as i could.

foooh *wipes sweat away*

friday was presentation day!

we were the third to present and mannn the video was annoyingly funny! and omg we looked retarded! :D

but well, we did it so yayyyy to mellisa, persie and myself. wooooooh

soon after, met the two bestfriends! :D

eat, talked, laughed, took random photos!

and lets go back to dunman one day ey!

saturday was apel day!

with matthias and it was kinda fun and draggy at the same time.

hahaha :D

after that, us girls went to lasalle and nafa for its diploma and degree shows. super cool la
such creative people mann

i reallllly hope our/my fyp would be as great, or even better!

this week have been a hell of a week.

fun, crazy, painful, sad, exciting, fascinating, tiring, crazy and everything nice!

ooookay till then!

♥

disappointment

2009-05-19T02:27:00.002+08:00

im sorry.
im just, disappointed.
and i just feel used and unappreciated.
i hope, what i think is untrue.
and i hope, i was wrong.
im sorry.
goodnight

hey miss my love can i!

2009-05-17T23:41:00.007+08:00

finally, i went jogging today!
yay!!! :D

and finally too, i didnt miss class today!
double yay!!! :D

and and probably i wanna go jog/cycle next week,
anybody ?

and and and, i suddenly remembered,
joke of the day on friday(lilings surprise);

X: omgg whos that part time guy again! i cant remember his name!
Y: umm umm ummmm *thinking*
X: omg whats his name! *cracking up brain to remember*
Y: oh oh oh, is it logan ?
X: no logan is wolverine! *shouts without hesistating*
X and Y stared at each other and burst out laughing the second after that!
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH :DDDD
totally random!
heheheee

and oh,
Happy Happy Birthday Hisham! :D

because you can

2009-05-16T23:54:00.007+08:00

YAYYYYYYYY
ENVIRONMENTAL TECHNOLOGY- PWNED!
im so gladd i handed it in on time!
yayyy :DD

hahah so,
just watched Ghosts of Girlfriends Past online.
hahah. its a movie about a guy; Conner, who loves freedom and women(lol) and doesnt believe in love and marriage at all. but soon enough, he'll find out how important love actually is. and blablabla. hahah go and watch the trailer if you guys are interested.
as a whole, the movie was awesome, and funny too! (Y)
so its kinda worth your time! when youre bored or something. heheee :D

so anyways, yesterday was the submission, and right after that i went to meet kelvin and yadi to prepare for the surprise for liling! :D
the surprise worked! but it was a little paisey because we were like bringing the cake from nowhere to starbucks and people were staring. hahahahah :D

after the surprise, we walked around to look for place to eat because some of us were super hungry. i havent ate the whole day that day T,T
since i was kinda bored and very hungry, i took many random photos along the way. hehh

and so so so, ended up, we went to swensens! yayyyy!
started crapping and laughing and reminiscing our way through the delicious foodss and hahah mann, im so gonna miss them.

i hope liling was surprised and hopefully, she'll love the cake and the gift too! :D
i know this is still early but,
Happy Happy Happy Advanced Birthday Liling! ♥
:D

besides this fun day i had, theres also tues, where mellisa, persie and i were so YUCKY to be at the marina bay for a competition brief. hahahah.
we decided last min and thought we were going to be late, but hey! we were the earliest from TP actually! hahaha :D

we get to be at the VIP room where the president and all those vip people was at during ndp. it was hell of a fun. after the brief, we went around and outside the place and took video and took photos and eat!(the free food) like nobodys business. hahaha
we were sure very yucky(inside joke) to be there! :D

after we left the building, we went to sit by the singapore river, near the esplanade and well what else did we do if not crapping and laughing and taking photos and videos again! hahaha :D
i think people especially couples get annoyed by us! especially when we were making weird sounds! hahahahahah! :D
wanted to eat at gelare sooo bad, but time and money didnt allowed us to. so next tues, gelare, here we come! :D

oookay, i better get back to my other movies!
till then!
love,

because tonight will be the night

2009-05-10T00:25:00.014+08:00

but without you, all im going to be is,

incomplete.

first of, Happy Mama's Day! :D
yayyyyyy!
got my mommy a gift and she was ecstatic! hahah i hope.
and and and, i know that you know that we love you and always willlllll (:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

ohh and ive finally watched X-Men Origins: Wolverine!!! :D

watched it at GV with Persieee and Syaraminah (:

and i have to say the movie was awesome! (Y)

gambit was there and hes so cool and ofcourse, the hero; wolverine/logan himself was cool too. hahahhha

if you havent watch it yet and want to, gogogo now, worth your money! ;D

and and and its so good to see Daniel Henney again!
hahahahah! though he was a baddiee. hehehh dont worry i still love you Daniel Henney!
heeeee :D

and oh besides that, this recent thursday, my girls and i went to frolick and starbucks and and and ofcourse, it was fun! hahah. we talked and chatted and laughed about random stuff while eating frolicks yoghurt and drinking starbucks frappes at TampinesOne. weeeeee :D

and mannnn i missed drinking drinks from starbucks and coffee bean! :D

hahahh okay right now i gotta get back to work because ive been slacking for the past few days. soooo, yeah.

heheeeee :D

and and and i cant wait for this coming friday! ;D

ooookay till then,

♥

2009-05-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

i try to hold it all inside, just for tonight
the top of the world, sitting here wishing
the things ive become, something is missing
and its clear in my head,
im screaming for something,
im on my own

i'll be fine

36hours and counting

2009-04-29T03:40:00.000+08:00

and those little voice are whispering,
saying dont look back, you can never look back.

yesterday i broke a record. because know why,
i was awake for almost 39hours!
yes i know, im not normal. okay fine, this might be normal for a few people actually, but not for me, especially not when im tired from doing schoolwork.
usually i will sleep right after i submit my work, but this time round, i didnt. no, i couldnt.
BUT, haha, fortunately i did fell asleep eventually. YAY! :D

BUT, right now, cant sleep again =,=

so anyways moving on, Environmental Technology, the module im currently having right now.
at first i expected it to be so boring and lecturey. but hey, it turns out quite fun actually. hahah!
designing toilet, learning about which pipe carries your shit and which pipe carries the other (HAHA!), learning about thermal energy (physics again!) and stuff like air transmitting into your house, and also about aircon. hahahh seemed boring huh? but pretty fun to know too. hahah no joke! i really had no idea designing bathrooms/toilet would actually be exciting. hahahh.
i hope the final assignment is going to be fun too. come on Rosli, dont disappoint me!
hehehehehhhh :D

so last saturday i went cycling with Amberle at EastCoastPark. we wanted to go to sentosa but we thought we were late so we headed to ecp instead! hahah!
we cycled 20km for 2hours straight! mannn i was soooo happy man!
hahah and tired too.
it was fun la. since it has been so long since i last exercise.
so it felt good to finally get to ride a bicycle again. hahahh.
lets go again! anyone is welcome to join us! :D

AND OH YES! this recent monday, we (that is, amberle, insyirah, mellisa and myself) finally surprised PERSIE YANG SUYI for super belated birthday. hahah it was almost a month man. hahahh. we actually wanted to surprise her so wayy before, much much nearer to her birthday, but well, time didnt allowed us. hahahh so yes, we finally did it. we surprised her with a small chocolate coffee cake with a cute P candle. and we also surprised her with random gifts! hahahhh cute i tell you. and man was the surprise successful!! hahahhh pwned!
persie was really shocked and we were really happy! dont cry kay persie! :D
hahahhh i hope you'll love the gifts and the cake and the surprise though we were late persie!
HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR PERSIE YANG SUYI! :DD
takecare of yourself (and your stuff too!) always, and stay happy always kay! all the best for everything in your life, shall see you face in any library books in 10yrs time! hehehee. and dont worry, your mr perfect will be there soon, hahahaahhh! ;)
love you la persie! :DD

yours sincerely,
:D

2009-04-25T02:34:00.006+08:00

before,

and after (:

hahahah! see i told you guys theres difference! my hair length is shorter! and my fringe is soo much shorter! :D

anyway, right now, i should be doing my schoolwork, yet, im slacking still
=,=

(: / |:

2009-04-20T03:13:00.010+08:00

because everybody knows the end

so in a few hours time, i'll be making my way to school for the very first day of my yeartwo/junior life. wow. this is fast. really it is. i still remember my first day as a freshie.
and mann, im so going to miss being a freshie.
ooooh wells, not a freshie anymore huh. gotta deal with it.
for now, i have no idea if i should be psyched or down that school is a few hours away.
pfffffft

so anyways, on a much lighter note,
DOC'09 / Camp X was totallywonderfullyfantasticallyawesome! :D
preparation was great, great time spent with subcomms
registration was awesome! haha awesome time meeting freshies (not to mention cute/hot ones! heeee)
mass dance was fun!
sentosa was tiring yet great
nightwalk was hysterically awesome la! i enjoyed every moment of it!! &it feels great hearing freshies screamed. heeheee :D
final clash & regatta was awesome too! Best Spirited Award; PWNED! :D
design shower was great too!
&last but not least, debrief and phototaking sessions with welfarelove was great (:
i have to say i really enjoyed it and i have no regrets at all joining doc ((((((((:
temasek design school is loveeeee :]

timecheck; 3.50 right now.
i better get some sleep before getting myself ready real soooooon.
but before that,

i would like to wish my eversoawesomebeloved sister; Zakiah or what people would call her, zach, a very very very Happy 23rd Birthday! :DDD (okay fine, its on the 17th so its belated actually, hehh)
may He always bless you. may you stay strong always. may may you be happy always with ehemehem (heeeeee). and lets go out more more often! lets go gym together back again! lets go overseas together! (this year okay!) lets crap/gossip/talk more often! lets just be more and more and more close every day okay! and you should know that all of us are here for you no matter what happens, and ofcourse, you should know too that we love you and always will ((:
and if you need anything, im just a door away, or maybe a call away because i might not be home. heeeeee :D
takecare, we love you and once more, Happy Happy Birthday (((((((:

till then, love,

SIAO

2009-04-11T08:55:00.002+08:00

its 0855am and wow, im still awake.

what a holiday

2009-04-06T16:51:00.004+08:00

so one week of holiday is over
and im left with two more weeks before the enjoying torture starts again
man.

well last week have been a hell of a week. ive been going everywhere despite being sick.
nevertheless, im thankful that right now im wayy better than before. still having flu, but feeling much better.

so, tuesday i went to school.
wednesday and thursday was the class chalet with the awesome da16 plus a few people from da15. it was a hell of a fun itellyou. water bombs, card games esp taite(or however you spell it) which i got so addicted to, mahjong, playing the guitar, singing, watching teevee, late night talks, watching the guys going crazy/wild, lazying/sleeping at the sofa/couch, cooking, bbq-ing, eating the delicious food, taking crazy photos, taking jumpshots and well, so much more funcrazy things. hahahah.
but too bad, we didnt go for the sortof nightwalk and i miss the sunrise because i overslept.
haha. but hey, its fine. it was still, awesome afterall (:
and have i mentioned to you it was fun? haha
oh yeah and photos will be up as soon as i upload it, and when im not that lazy. haha!

sothen, uhh friday was supposed to go out, but didnt atlast. so laze at home the whole day.
oh yeah, then i finally had the chance to watch alllll the moovies i wanted to.
haha let me list down all that ive watched for these past few days.

august rush, the coolest awesomest music movie! though ending was kinda weird
definitely maybe, nice funny romantic movie! i love that april is the one
the house bunny, really hilarious funny bimbotic movie! i love those the zeta girls
my sassy girl, funny yet heartfelt romantic comedy movie! awesome ending
wanted, watched it before, but watched it again, and ofcourse, awesome cooool movie! duhhh!
confessions of shopaholic, watched it before too, haha funny cute movie!
notting hill, funny british love story/movie! love the british accent! (as always) though it was abit draggy
twilight, notsobad nice movie! though i thought it was actually kinda weird. bellas pretty and edwards hot

hahahhahahahahah! so you see, ive watched 8 movies in just a few days. and theres more more more moovies to waiting for me! man this is sooo addictive! :DDDDDD

okay moving on, haha,
saturday was an outing with my eversoawesome family. went to johor for dinner and unfortunately, we ate too long, i didnt get to buy what i wanted to get there. hmms nevermind.

sunday was half day at home and another half outside.
went out with agnes and yadi. the rest was supposed to join but they couldnt make it.
so well ofcourse, we went to watch Paul Blart: mall cop at cineleisure. haha yes i know another movie. the movie was great! it was really funny! cant stop laughing at him! hahahah.
ofcourse, an awesome movie to watch (;
oh yeah, not to forget too, we went to eat at Pastamania! it was my first time there and the food was great! nice nice nice! i'll be sure to go there again! :D

haha, so well, yeah. thats my first week. as you can see, im enjoying my holidays! and theres more to come. heehee
well, at the end of the day, i just hope i'll get what i want to socalled achieve this holiday. lol! and i kinda cant wait for my results too.
wish me luck ey guys!
and last but not the very least, thanks to you, for everything (:

lovelovelove,
;)

exhausted yet gleeful

2009-03-31T04:51:00.010+08:00

projectone is over
freshie life is over
yearone life is over
dotc2 is over

and

hello yeartwo life
hello junior life
hello projecttwo and more
hello doc

so dotc2 was great
nightwalk was great
slacking was great too
haha!

its funny how during camp, other people are having fun and busy and tired, but us welfare, busy slacking around and sleeping. hahaha!
well, i was sleeping. okay fine lets not say it sleeping, its more like resting okay. i was sick and still is :P
im not gonna blabber much about camp because, well, i still havent recover from tired yet, and ofcourse as you know, im lazy :P
nevertheless, dotc2 was still fun. (:

and neither am i gonna talk much about how projectone ended, well because its over and donewith, and no point brooding over it or stuff like that. and well, for the results, im just hoping for the best! (:

and and and, i think this week is going to be busy for me. because i still have to attend 3days firstaid lessons/crash course, 1or2days of school, and stuff like sending postage to peoples house for the camp. and not to forget, chalet and outing with family and friends for this week. and man, i feel really exhausted still. and to make it even better, im down with overflowing running nose plus sore throat. hooray to me. i really dont hope to get fever anytime soon.
oh wells, there goes my first week of holiday.
i really hope for time for myself for the second week of holiday. hmmms.

well on a lighter note, the last day of school was celebrated with Confessions of a shopaholic with amberle, lijin and vanessa. the movie was awesome! though it was a rush and all at first, it was still great afterall! (:

and oh oh oh, have i mention to you that i feel good right now? huhuhuhu
despite being sick and very exhausted, i still feel great! (:
and hopefully i'll feel even better and stronger real soon.
thankYou so much for everything :)))))))))

oh yes, one more,

happy belated birthday to my beloved nazmi! :D

alright, now i need a little rest before getting ready to go to school.

haha =.=

withmuchlove,

hopes for the best

2009-03-21T11:42:00.004+08:00

for now, i cant do much,
so what i can do is to just hope and pray for the best for them.
i wouldnt know if that incident is going to happen again, (well ofcourse i hope not), but im just hoping and praying for the best.

and and and,
projectone's FINAL PRESENTATION/FINAL SUBIMISSION is this thursday. im gonna give my all to this final lap and just keep autocading and modelmaking and photoshopping and drawing and rendering and all. gahhhhhhhh. >,<
okay wish me luck guys!
and to all des school people whos struggling, lets jiayou for the last lap! woooooooooooooooooooooooooohoo!
all the best (:

2009-03-15T16:22:00.002+08:00

zestfully in pain, physically.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wish.

sigh.

i need a break! please.

2009-03-08T21:28:00.012+08:00

it has been a while now, hasnt it?

haha. dont blame me, blame projectone. huhuhu.

ive been busy with school so much, i have lesser time on anything else.

and ive been feeling rather very lethargic lately. always feel tired.

i have no idea why.

and mann i miss going out, seriously.

no wait, not just going out, i miss having non-busy times/moments.

wait, that doesnt sound right. but well, you get me right.

that is why i really cant wait for my holidays. three weeks more. three weeks to go.

come on come on come on.

and i seriously hope, my holidays wont be busy either. sheesh. i hate that word.

i really hope it wont be a busy holiday, because well, i have two very long camps and im still considering if i should go for it, or not. hmms.

and you know, i told myself, for the coming holidays, in those three weeks, i need to have some time on my own, well not in an emo way, i meant to really relax and chill.

one of my friend told me to do so too because she said i need that. school is like my second home already. you see, early in the morning, i go to school, will do work in school until late at night, usually around 8 or 9, then i'll go home, so from there, either i'll continue my work or i'll just sleep without knowing. so you see, my life is pretty much school school school, dont you think so?it even seemed like i have no life at all. sigh. =____=

well its okay, three weeks more right. i have to persevere! i have to be strong!

so speaking of breaks and all that, lucky me, i actually went to catch a movie just this recent mon. huhuhu! :D

i watched He's just not that into you with agnes. it was great. i like it. i love it. :D

was supposed to watch with the others but they came late, so didnt get the chance to hang around with them aftermath. sads. because you know why? duh. school.

oh wells, i need to get back to work.
all the best guys!

wish me luck ey!

love,

best wishes! :D

2009-02-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

to those whos having exams,
allllll the very best!

to those whos having killer projects,
allllll the very very best!

to those who needs luck,
good luck!
haha.

jiayou, ganbatte, whathaveyou!
:D

iloveYou

2009-02-19T01:09:00.003+08:00

theres no doubt,
that You're, indeed, the best thing that ever happened to me,
i love You to death.

i want a mix korean boyfriend too!

2009-02-14T12:54:00.015+08:00

school. school. school.
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i cant help but to have negative thoughts everyday because of school.
okay fine, its not really school, its projectone.
i feel so sad and dejected everyday because up till now, i still cant figure out my concept for our project, promenade.
but seriously, what is concept, really?
im beyond confuse itellyou.
and because these days i get overstressed, sometimes i'll get mindblock, and when that happens, i couldnt think of anything at all, which resulted in something i trully hate called, giving up.
i really dont want to give up. not at all.
but, what should i do? what can i do? what must i do?
perhaps i should just rest my mind.
sigh.

okay okay okay. enough with emo posts already.
urgh. its so..... emo. sheesh.

so moving on. on a very lighter note,
i fell in love,
with

Daniel Henney

Daniel Phillip Henney. his father is British and his mother is a Korean-Amerian adoptee.

so hes korean-american-brit ? hahah. in any way, hes a mix.

&because hes a mix, he speaks in good english, unlike any other korean actors. he understands korean language well, but couldnt speak korean languange that well.

&&because of his parents, his english is kinda like, britishamerican-like, partly the reason why im falling for him!!! awwwww. (idontknowwhy, i love people with british accents)

well, the other reason is obviously because hes ubber ubber hot/handsome/goodlooking/charming/cute/whathaveyou. :DD

&hes first movie, Seducing Mr Perfect, was the movie that caught my attention.

omg i watched the movie for dontknowhowmanytimes i tell you.

&&hes gonna appear on X-Men Origins: Wolverine, and that means,

im sooooooo gonna watch it!!!!!

:DDDDDDD

&oh, happy valentines day for those whos celebrating!

okay last one last one.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

till then,

quote

2009-02-11T17:47:00.005+08:00

the past shall be your lesson,
and the future shall be your aim
;)

INEEDYOU

2009-02-09T01:44:00.007+08:00

bimbinglah langkah kakiku, aku hilang arah tanpa pimpinanMu, aku lemah tanpa hadiranMu.
i need strength
i need to be strong
i need You

2009-01-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

life; with all the challenges in it, with all the ups and downs, amazes me all the time. especially when it comes to this creation called the, humanbeing. can you ever understand one totally? their behaviour, their feelings, their actions. sometimes, you wont even understand yourself. you wont understand why at times are you behaving, reacting in such way. how your feelings can go haywire one moment and another, you'll feel suddenly happy. how you have different, weird feelings you cant explain at all. how your brain can control you and all that. you know. so since you cant understand one's feelings and behaviour totally, you wont know whats on their mind. well, unless youre a psychic. but even if youre a psychic, trust me, you can never understand them totally and fully. because only He knows everything.
and well, when all these things amaze you, you got really puzzled and confused. which ended up makes you think that life is so hard, so confusing, youre tired of thinking already. and adding up with all the other things you have in mind like your overloaded assignments and works, you started to sigh all the time and have that feeling of giving-up. and the worst part is, you want to give up on life. and because you dont believe in suicide, the only way for you to give up on life, is to not do anything at all. but, whats the purpose of life then when you dont feel like doing anything anymore? whats the use of life when you feel like letting everything go? theres no more meaning to it anymore, right? and isnt it as good/bad as being dead? so youre like alive, yet youre dead inside. you'll then live up to the word; "no life" and people will literally say "get a life" to you. but, seriously, to think about it rationally, dont you think its rather senseless and foolish?
sothen, you know, that you should go on. you know, that you should held your head up, prepare yourself for whatever challenge that is coming in your way. you know, that you need to keep telling yourself not to give up. and you know, that, no matter how bad it is, no matter how serious and terrible it gets, you just need to go on. because this is, the reality, this is the real world. and besides, without all these challenges, life would be pretty boring just being carefree and happy and perfect all the time, now, wouldnt it?
thence, live your life to the fullest.
cherish every moment of it.
treasure every millisecond of it.
you only get one chance to live, so make it the best.
seize the day.

2009-01-29T16:28:00.001+08:00

because im sick
:(
yet i have so many assignments to finish.
:(((

2009-01-26T22:28:00.004+08:00

oh no. i think im addicted to junk food, again.

i is tired

2009-01-24T01:45:00.006+08:00

i am exhausted, drained, weary, fatigued, exasperated, lethargic and whathaveyou. okay simply put; i. am. just. very. tired.
and i have no idea why. i mean, like suddenly, i feel v v v tired & exhausted, mentally. not physically. give me 9000 bottles of drink, i'll still feel exhausted.
perhaps, i should get some rest yeah?
ooohman. :(

my feelings (or is it just me?) are weird sometimes. one moment i can get really eager and all charged to do my work, another moment i can get really tired and exhausted so suddenly.
hmm.
but actually, come to think about it again, its doesnt happened that often, you know, this mentally tired thing. or perhaps, ive been a little too stress with all the assignments given. probably thats why.
hmm but hey, thats okay, i must remain strong no matter what.
&well, clearly i need a break and some rest too.

ohyeah, speaking of break, met nurfatihah & nurzahidah just now.
supposed to watch movie with misscool but didnt because there wasnt any good movie to watch.
damn. i sooo want to watch a movie sey.
hmm nevermind.
still enjoy walking here&there looking for gift&books, talking endlessly (mostly it was me, lol!), laughing at stupid stuff and uhh, being ignored. hahah.
inwhich after that i met missjustcutfringe to take the books from her. spent some time crapping, laughing, talking, eating chocolate (that was just me too) and uhh, looking at myschoolstuff. hahah.
&its cool how at such short period of time, at the bench outside your house, we can actually enjoy our time ey. hahah!
well, atleast, that was a good break. :)

and right now, i think i need to rest.
ohyes before i forget,
happy holidays and happy new year to all! :D

&to my younger sister, zakirah,
happy 13th birthday!! :DD

(&incase youre a dumbo, shes the one on the left. haha!)

till then,

aku berserah

2009-01-18T03:48:00.001+08:00

when these things happened, its unknowingly affecting me badly. and it got me thinking, why does it have to be this way? why do i have to think so much about it? because the actual fact is, it doesnt have to be this way. and i dont need to think so much about it. i just need to be strong, thats all. but hey, thats okay. because i guess, i got over it already. i guess, its better off this way. and perhaps, its just not the right time, just not yet. and hey, dont worry, im not giving up. infact, im never going to give up. just like in my favourite song, "im letting love find a way, find its way". :]
aku berserah.

have a good night. :)
with love,

2009-01-18T01:49:00.006+08:00

i hate my bad habit. and im afraid it'll just get worse.
this have to end. i dont know how but this must end no matter what.

aiyo.
okay skip that now. so, as said in previous post, i present to you
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.
photos. :D
enjoy laughing!

our structure/sculpture/model

:)

:)

ban soon(course manager) with girls

woohoo! open house iad sculpture! :D

balloons!

the letting-go-of-balloon moment

byebye balloons. :)

jumpshot! ready.. set..

go! :D

what a landing! haha :D

weee starjump! ignore the faces. haha

omg i look retarded! haha xD

insyilah & ambrella :D

spot the difference. haha!

correction: iad 08/09

kadooosh!

O-M-G

haha!

the sculptors with their sculpture ;)

hahahah! :D

superheroines!

omg, just look at my right eye. =_=

iad booth! :D

UTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! *melts* :DDD

sleeq :D

jam & hop :D

girls, without persie

DONE :]

anyways, after much rest because of stomach flu earlier today, met miss geekyyetsexy a.k.a. fatihah as planned.

supposed to go to her brother's gig but time didnt allowed us. so well, thats ookay.

went to parkway and finally ate a proper meal to fill my v empty stomach. hehee. xD
window-shoped a little, laughed and took a few retarded photos. haha.

&thanks for the surprising belated gift ye nurfatihah. haha. and for the 9658345629865 times, dont worry, i like it okay. :D

alright, till then

yours sincerely,

2009-01-15T01:13:00.001+08:00

at the end of the road,
im on my own.

2009-01-11T02:06:00.005+08:00

the sun comes up,
and now you have a chance again,
the world falls down,
we all forget where to begin,
the world collapses,
but you hold it in.

:]
basically, this week has been filled with sugar, spice and everything nice.
huhuhu.

&so, for the weekdays, it has been hectic with the preparation of the open house plus our assignments. so hell yeah. it was crazy.
nevertheless, my girls and i still had fun no matter what. hehee.
with all the funny lame jokes that got us laughing nonstop, to the bizarre antics like using the cardboard material to play bowling. hahahah. we are beyond crazy, i tell you.
&multimedia fundamentals wasnt so bad at all either. it was weirdly fun actually. hahah.

&as for the weekends, saturday, which was also the last day of open house, turned out awesome unexpectedly. haha. because at first it was kind of boring, because there wasnt that many people coming to our iad booth. but hey, once again, we entertained ourselves. hahah.
all the dancing, shouting, playing balloon, laughing, taking photos, going to the triangular garden for fun, munching nuggets (thanks matthias, haha!), cheering, singing, playing soccer and well many more. huhuhuu.
&i met zahidah too! haha miss that woman!
oh and yes, not to forget, taking photos with celebrities especially Utt!! omg omg omg omg!
heheheee. &photos will be up as soon as insyilah pass it all to me. hee. :D
&jam and hop wasnt that bad too. though we didnt went to the crowd, we really enjoyed ourselves standing at the stairs, shaking our asses, dance weirdly to the songs and looking at breakdancers dance too. haha! coolorwhat. hahah.
great awesome day i had. :)

&not to forget, my sunday dinner was well spent with my beloved parents and sister too. hahah.
we talked alot of crappy stuff. huhuhuu.

bottomline is,
i definitely had a wonderful time this week, no doubt. :]

cheers love,

awesome

2009-01-05T02:16:00.004+08:00

because you keep my feet on the ground,

awesome day,
awesome night,
awesome time,
enough said.

have a good night.
:]

2009-01-04T02:26:00.006+08:00

because tonight, you hurt me like a knife,
but it is too deep, that it didnt even bleed.

sigh.
school is starting real soon, and im not prepared at all.
&im pretty sure next week is going to be hectic, with the open house and all.
&on monday i need to come to school at 830am though my class is at 12pm, so very early. sigh. &to make it even better, school will end at 9pm that day. so 830am to 9pm in school.
fun, isnt it?
sigh.
wish me luck.

&i dont know why. but things like this can hurt me easily. i guess, i shouldnt expect much from youi guess, i shouldnt hope much from you. i dont know. i guess, dejection and disappoinment speaks on its own.
sigh.
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.
.
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anyways, all i gotta do is to stay positive no matter what. well, smiles everybody!
:)

2009-01-03T03:36:00.007+08:00

hahahaha so! jeng jeng jeng..

my bloggie is done! :D
thanks alot lot lot to littlemisscool aka nurfatihahabdrahim. ;D
huhuhuuuu.
but well its not all done yet, because i still wanna edit some stuff.

&haha see. its almost four and im still awake.
i still cant sleep. but yes yes, i should atleast try kan.
no worries, i will do my best! hoho. :D

&im still high. and mcfly just got me even higher.
ooohman, i just cant get enough of them! really!!! weeeehooo!
hahhaha see? told you. hahaha.
:DDDD

haha okay so skip all these highness.
so 2009, uhh resolutions?
haha okay, i dont actually do all these resolutions thing. and im not so excited about the new year either.
to me, its just another year. which i just hope, for the best, for me and for everybody else.
thats it, i just hope and pray for the very best. :]
other than that, i hope to do v v v well for my studies, so that i'll make my mama proud, my beloved family and most of all, haha myself.
:]

&holidays gonna end anytime soon. im not-so prepared for school, yet, i dont feel as much lazy to go back to school either. and im not so prepared for P1 either. haih. i just hope i'll make it through this year.
wooooh. positive positive positive.

&&i thank you so much for everything. i felt great every single day because of you. im loving everyone and everything in my life lately. im appreciating everything that it is in my life nowadays. and even when shit happens, i'll always feel better afterwards. i just, feel great, wonderful, awesome. :) thanks to you. iloveyou, always.

yours sincerely,
Zuhairah(x

2009-01-03T01:08:00.001+08:00

so hold me close and say those three words like you used to do,
dancing on the kitchen tiles,
its all about you.

:DDDDDD
haha hello!
im so happy happy happy tonight.
haha i guess, well, im high at night.
weehoo.

anyhoos, littlemisscool is helping me with my template now.
haha! im abit noob at this. :P

&i need to go to school tomorrow, for the open house thingy, yet i couldnt sleep.
aiyoh. insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia.
haih. when oh when will i get my proper sleep.
gahhhh!

a new beginning

2009-01-01T20:37:00.001+08:00

hey! :]
so how should i start now?
oh yah,
Happy New Year!

umm, well so, yeah, i guess thats it?
haha i dont pretty much know what to say for the very first post, soo, uhh yeah.
hahaha.

&dont worry. this is not my first time blogging, ive been blogging since, ever, so im not really a noob at this.
huhuhuh.
&you may or may not know me, but errr, who cares?
haha, its a public blog anyways.
&oh oh, credits to nurfatihah for helping me with the blogname. hey, it aint that easy okay?
hahah.

so, uhh, enjoy kay ?
haha. :D