it meant more, so much more

Saturday, January 31, 2009

life; with all the challenges in it, with all the ups and downs, amazes me all the time. especially when it comes to this creation called the, humanbeing. can you ever understand one totally? their behaviour, their feelings, their actions. sometimes, you wont even understand yourself. you wont understand why at times are you behaving, reacting in such way. how your feelings can go haywire one moment and another, you'll feel suddenly happy. how you have different, weird feelings you cant explain at all. how your brain can control you and all that. you know. so since you cant understand one's feelings and behaviour totally, you wont know whats on their mind. well, unless youre a psychic. but even if youre a psychic, trust me, you can never understand them totally and fully. because only He knows everything.
and well, when all these things amaze you, you got really puzzled and confused. which ended up makes you think that life is so hard, so confusing, youre tired of thinking already. and adding up with all the other things you have in mind like your overloaded assignments and works, you started to sigh all the time and have that feeling of giving-up. and the worst part is, you want to give up on life. and because you dont believe in suicide, the only way for you to give up on life, is to not do anything at all. but, whats the purpose of life then when you dont feel like doing anything anymore? whats the use of life when you feel like letting everything go? theres no more meaning to it anymore, right? and isnt it as good/bad as being dead? so youre like alive, yet youre dead inside. you'll then live up to the word; "no life" and people will literally say "get a life" to you. but, seriously, to think about it rationally, dont you think its rather senseless and foolish?
sothen, you know, that you should go on. you know, that you should held your head up, prepare yourself for whatever challenge that is coming in your way. you know, that you need to keep telling yourself not to give up. and you know, that, no matter how bad it is, no matter how serious and terrible it gets, you just need to go on. because this is, the reality, this is the real world. and besides, without all these challenges, life would be pretty boring just being carefree and happy and perfect all the time, now, wouldnt it?
thence, live your life to the fullest.
cherish every moment of it.
treasure every millisecond of it.
you only get one chance to live, so make it the best.
seize the day.

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at 11:47 PM

Thursday, January 29, 2009

because im sick
:(
yet i have so many assignments to finish.
:(((

at 4:28 PM

Monday, January 26, 2009

oh no. i think im addicted to junk food, again.

at 10:28 PM

Saturday, January 24, 2009

i am exhausted, drained, weary, fatigued, exasperated, lethargic and whathaveyou. okay simply put; i. am. just. very. tired.
and i have no idea why. i mean, like suddenly, i feel v v v tired & exhausted, mentally. not physically. give me 9000 bottles of drink, i'll still feel exhausted.
perhaps, i should get some rest yeah?
ooohman. :(

my feelings (or is it just me?) are weird sometimes. one moment i can get really eager and all charged to do my work, another moment i can get really tired and exhausted so suddenly.
hmm.
but actually, come to think about it again, its doesnt happened that often, you know, this mentally tired thing. or perhaps, ive been a little too stress with all the assignments given. probably thats why.
hmm but hey, thats okay, i must remain strong no matter what.
&well, clearly i need a break and some rest too.

ohyeah, speaking of break, met nurfatihah & nurzahidah just now.
supposed to watch movie with misscool but didnt because there wasnt any good movie to watch.
damn. i sooo want to watch a movie sey.
hmm nevermind.
still enjoy walking here&there looking for gift&books, talking endlessly (mostly it was me, lol!), laughing at stupid stuff and uhh, being ignored. hahah.
inwhich after that i met missjustcutfringe to take the books from her. spent some time crapping, laughing, talking, eating chocolate (that was just me too) and uhh, looking at myschoolstuff. hahah.
&its cool how at such short period of time, at the bench outside your house, we can actually enjoy our time ey. hahah!
well, atleast, that was a good break. :)

and right now, i think i need to rest.
ohyes before i forget,
happy holidays and happy new year to all! :D

&to my younger sister, zakirah,
happy 13th birthday!! :DD

(&incase youre a dumbo, shes the one on the left. haha!)

till then,

at 1:45 AM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

when these things happened, its unknowingly affecting me badly. and it got me thinking, why does it have to be this way? why do i have to think so much about it? because the actual fact is, it doesnt have to be this way. and i dont need to think so much about it. i just need to be strong, thats all. but hey, thats okay. because i guess, i got over it already. i guess, its better off this way. and perhaps, its just not the right time, just not yet. and hey, dont worry, im not giving up. infact, im never going to give up. just like in my favourite song, "im letting love find a way, find its way". :]
aku berserah.

have a good night. :)
with love,

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at 3:48 AM

i hate my bad habit. and im afraid it'll just get worse.
this have to end. i dont know how but this must end no matter what.

aiyo.
okay skip that now. so, as said in previous post, i present to you
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photos. :D
enjoy laughing!

our structure/sculpture/model

ban soon(course manager) with girls

woohoo! open house iad sculpture! :D

balloons!

the letting-go-of-balloon moment

byebye balloons. :)

jumpshot! ready.. set..

go! :D

what a landing! haha :D

weee starjump! ignore the faces. haha

omg i look retarded! haha xD

insyilah & ambrella :D

spot the difference. haha!

correction: iad 08/09

kadooosh!

O-M-G

haha!

the sculptors with their sculpture ;)

hahahah! :D

superheroines!

omg, just look at my right eye. =_=

iad booth! :D

UTT!!!!!!!!!!!!! *melts* :DDD

sleeq :D

jam & hop :D

girls, without persie

DONE :]

anyways, after much rest because of stomach flu earlier today, met miss geekyyetsexy a.k.a. fatihah as planned.

supposed to go to her brother's gig but time didnt allowed us. so well, thats ookay.

went to parkway and finally ate a proper meal to fill my v empty stomach. hehee. xD
window-shoped a little, laughed and took a few retarded photos. haha.

&thanks for the surprising belated gift ye nurfatihah. haha. and for the 9658345629865 times, dont worry, i like it okay. :D

alright, till then

yours sincerely,

at 1:49 AM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

at the end of the road,
im on my own.

at 1:13 AM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

the sun comes up,
and now you have a chance again,
the world falls down,
we all forget where to begin,
the world collapses,
but you hold it in.

:]
basically, this week has been filled with sugar, spice and everything nice.
huhuhu.

&so, for the weekdays, it has been hectic with the preparation of the open house plus our assignments. so hell yeah. it was crazy.
nevertheless, my girls and i still had fun no matter what. hehee.
with all the funny lame jokes that got us laughing nonstop, to the bizarre antics like using the cardboard material to play bowling. hahahah. we are beyond crazy, i tell you.
&multimedia fundamentals wasnt so bad at all either. it was weirdly fun actually. hahah.

&as for the weekends, saturday, which was also the last day of open house, turned out awesome unexpectedly. haha. because at first it was kind of boring, because there wasnt that many people coming to our iad booth. but hey, once again, we entertained ourselves. hahah.
all the dancing, shouting, playing balloon, laughing, taking photos, going to the triangular garden for fun, munching nuggets (thanks matthias, haha!), cheering, singing, playing soccer and well many more. huhuhuu.
&i met zahidah too! haha miss that woman!
oh and yes, not to forget, taking photos with celebrities especially Utt!! omg omg omg omg!
heheheee. &photos will be up as soon as insyilah pass it all to me. hee. :D
&jam and hop wasnt that bad too. though we didnt went to the crowd, we really enjoyed ourselves standing at the stairs, shaking our asses, dance weirdly to the songs and looking at breakdancers dance too. haha! coolorwhat. hahah.
great awesome day i had. :)

&not to forget, my sunday dinner was well spent with my beloved parents and sister too. hahah.
we talked alot of crappy stuff. huhuhuu.

bottomline is,
i definitely had a wonderful time this week, no doubt. :]

cheers love,

at 2:06 AM

Monday, January 5, 2009

because you keep my feet on the ground,

awesome day,
awesome night,
awesome time,
enough said.

have a good night.
:]

at 2:16 AM

Sunday, January 4, 2009

because tonight, you hurt me like a knife,
but it is too deep, that it didnt even bleed.

sigh.
school is starting real soon, and im not prepared at all.
&im pretty sure next week is going to be hectic, with the open house and all.
&on monday i need to come to school at 830am though my class is at 12pm, so very early. sigh. &to make it even better, school will end at 9pm that day. so 830am to 9pm in school.
fun, isnt it?
sigh.
wish me luck.

&i dont know why. but things like this can hurt me easily. i guess, i shouldnt expect much from youi guess, i shouldnt hope much from you. i dont know. i guess, dejection and disappoinment speaks on its own.
sigh.
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anyways, all i gotta do is to stay positive no matter what. well, smiles everybody!
:)

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at 2:26 AM

Saturday, January 3, 2009

hahahaha so! jeng jeng jeng..

my bloggie is done! :D
thanks alot lot lot to littlemisscool aka nurfatihahabdrahim. ;D
huhuhuuuu.
but well its not all done yet, because i still wanna edit some stuff.

&haha see. its almost four and im still awake.
i still cant sleep. but yes yes, i should atleast try kan.
no worries, i will do my best! hoho. :D

&im still high. and mcfly just got me even higher.
ooohman, i just cant get enough of them! really!!! weeeehooo!
hahhaha see? told you. hahaha.
:DDDD

haha okay so skip all these highness.
so 2009, uhh resolutions?
haha okay, i dont actually do all these resolutions thing. and im not so excited about the new year either.
to me, its just another year. which i just hope, for the best, for me and for everybody else.
thats it, i just hope and pray for the very best. :]
other than that, i hope to do v v v well for my studies, so that i'll make my mama proud, my beloved family and most of all, haha myself.
:]

&holidays gonna end anytime soon. im not-so prepared for school, yet, i dont feel as much lazy to go back to school either. and im not so prepared for P1 either. haih. i just hope i'll make it through this year.
wooooh. positive positive positive.

&&i thank you so much for everything. i felt great every single day because of you. im loving everyone and everything in my life lately. im appreciating everything that it is in my life nowadays. and even when shit happens, i'll always feel better afterwards. i just, feel great, wonderful, awesome. :) thanks to you. iloveyou, always.

yours sincerely,
Zuhairah(x

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at 3:36 AM

so hold me close and say those three words like you used to do,
dancing on the kitchen tiles,
its all about you.

:DDDDDD
haha hello!
im so happy happy happy tonight.
haha i guess, well, im high at night.
weehoo.

anyhoos, littlemisscool is helping me with my template now.
haha! im abit noob at this. :P

&i need to go to school tomorrow, for the open house thingy, yet i couldnt sleep.
aiyoh. insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia.
haih. when oh when will i get my proper sleep.
gahhhh!

at 1:08 AM

Thursday, January 1, 2009

hey! :]
so how should i start now?
oh yah,
Happy New Year!

umm, well so, yeah, i guess thats it?
haha i dont pretty much know what to say for the very first post, soo, uhh yeah.
hahaha.

&dont worry. this is not my first time blogging, ive been blogging since, ever, so im not really a noob at this.
huhuhuh.
&you may or may not know me, but errr, who cares?
haha, its a public blog anyways.
&oh oh, credits to nurfatihah for helping me with the blogname. hey, it aint that easy okay?
hahah.

so, uhh, enjoy kay ?
haha. :D

at 8:37 PM